Wooot !! (I would write a journal for the sake of using this new keyboard :drools
(I just need a change of journal - You can totally skip on and go back to your activities.)
Half of summer is done. 16 august I'll turn 25 - silver birthday
quarter of a century - according to me it's like finally "existing". Before 25 you just cumulate air miles - after 25, you can think of how to use them.
I always dreamt of becoming adult - and I thought it would be the easiest thing in the world. Get out of school, mature and ready (hello first deception, at 25 I feel as immature as I was in grade school) and have a job (hello second career's diploma), a house (still stuck with the old farts), and have the famous significant other (not socially ready for that either) and the dog and the cat and the goldfish (actually : dog, cat, tarantula and chameleon).
*deep sigh* My life is about to change drastically and I will admit it in all honesty - I'm afraid. But I guess I'll get through like I got through worst things before.
On the happy side of life - my muse has found her way back to my spirits
or I have found my way back to her arms. When I was 17, and before, I was almost assaulted by ideas of texts, stories and poems. And slowly it faded away and I thought I have lost it forever. But recently it came back ! And I'm darn happy about it ! I sit down and it flows from my mind directly to the word document. Have started this little science-fantasy type of story on my livejournal - not that I think you guys will go read but in case ...
[link] part one and then it has a link to the next part. (You are totally welcome to critique and share your thoughts ^-^) and yeah so I have these images of sequences in my head, as clear as if I have seen a movie. Words, sentences just pop in my mind and ... raw inspiration
The ... insecurity of my summer depresses me and makes me feel wonky. Last summer, I had a job for the whole summer and that made me fell good and safe. Bu the insecurity of contracts like this summer (3 weeks here, 1 week there, God knows what after that...) I don't like it. I need bloody routine to feel okay ! I wish for school to start in a week at the most so I get back some sense of routine. I need to know my future in advance - I am not the adventurous type ! I don't mind contracts per se - but I need to know how my time is - will be - divided.
Also, my dream experiences are getting closer to reality in the 5 senses : taste, sight, hearing, touching, smelling. In two years, I'll be running half naked in the streets claiming that the Matrix is real. (kidding !!) But it's really freakin' awesome ! I had a fish dish with my sis a couple nights ago, with mushroom sauce and I could detect the slight aftertaste of alcohol in the mushroom sauce !!
^___________^ And I guess I have some projects on the table too : first, for my b-day I have two projects. Yet again a card for myself with Sybille in her human form and Mitchie in his adorable puffy grumpy form and one thing I have seen on FunkyAlien's gallery - the idea is totally kick ass : it's you (drawn) and in various fonts all around your thoughts. Mine will be What I want ! (to do, to be, to have, to accomplish...)
I'm hoping to start the outline of one of them soon, while also continue working on the above quoted story. I have the bulk of it in my head and crispy details keep coming - so I'm working on not loosing the good stuff before it looses it's taste. For the very moment, I do now know how long it'll be. The first part - inspired by a dream - was typed at font 10 in word and lasted 11 pages
and I am not at 27 pages. And I only covered the "prologue" sort of part. I am greatly inspired by Marion Zimmer Bradley and Tanith Lee so big chances are I'm gonna go back to read their stuff. From Marion - I highly recommend the Darkover series (though - if you wanna live - avoid the very first book, start with Stormqueen) and from dear Tanith, I highly recommend Tales from the Flat Earth series - it Kicks !!)
Oh - and - you might see character sheets art here on da for my fiction. I have sketched down Queen Aylie, Harin and the Unicorn God (Lord Eldrick) and a few costumes. I'll see how I'll go about the other characters, maps, swords and stuff. Back in high school, I was such a sword addict !! My note books were filled with swords - I had a real hardcore obsession over swords, and how to fight with them and ... actually, I have found the best ones that I have kept in my papers over the years. Oh the nostalgia ! (and this little anecdote of me at 12, when I went to Québec city with my class and when I saw a decorative sword in the souvenir shop - oh the heartbeats ! It costed 120 bucks and I had 12$ -
omg I was so pissed and deceived. But then again, I'm sure they wouldn't have allowed a 12 year old kid to buy it anyway...)
Okies - end of typing joys :drools:
Keyboard : Microsoft soft Curve 2000 thingy - 15$ at Futureshop from July 11 to 17 ^-^ :drools: bloody awesome stuff !!
